A new day - feeling strong

I will be strong should be more like it.

Man, this weather really gets to me. I should never home alone during this weather because I'm bound to write a depressing blog about how sad I might be, but I know I shouldn't be.

This weather, it makes me miss a lot of things. It's the weather of change. It makes me miss friends, cookouts, patio parties in KC, makes me miss the sun. I LOVE the weather the same time - bring out the hoodies and pj bottoms!

Currently I'm really missing the KC friends that I had. Blair, Tessa, Deanna, Tanya, and others. It's just not the same. I miss the sitting on the porch of one of our apartments just enjoying life. However, I'm so thankful that I don't live in apartment anymore. Just strange and I can't figure it out which bothers me even more.

My life has changed a lot; I knew this would happen but it's difficult at times. I miss a lot of my friends. Student teaching, not working at Kohls, and being prego has really isolated me for the most part. I am still very thankful that I get to see Dan and Michelle on a regular 'schedule' but I never get to see my school friends or my kohls friends. I feel like I have to invite all of the time. Last night I text like 6 people what they were doing... and I heard back from three. Just odd. Life is changing.

Fall means change.


Student teaching is about 1/3 done! I'm so excited and pleased how successful the semester has gone thus far. I really enjoy my students, the stories that I have, and watching them grow. They are sad that I leave in December, as I will be too. Those kids I will never forget for the rest of my life. I hope that as much as they impacted my life that I have done the same for them.

I am really proud of Jeremiah right now. Not that I'm not proud of him normally but I'm a even more proud than before. For the past almost two weeks he has been working out to the insanity program. It is very insane. I can tell he's lost weight and he's well on his way to loosing more. He has a blog The Ongoing Narrative if you would like to follow him and his work out regime. It's silly but as much as he loses, I gain. I know it's healthy for me to gain weight so baby jones can be healthy. I just hope that once baby is here I will be able to stay as motivated as him to 'get skinny' and hope he loves me even if I'm a bit round.

I was able to hear the baby's heart beat at our last appointment. I didn't cry just kept saying how cool it was. I couldn't believe type of miracle of life was growing in me. I have several friends also pregnant and it's been fun talking to them and getting to experience similar things. Some are bit more fun to talk to than others, but that is life. Don't worry Cassie and Kaitlyn I love your conversations =]

Oh!! Thursday night we had a cookout. I grilled (charcoal) all by myself and it was a great success. I'm glad I am 'handy' in doing all house hold chores!

WEll I need to go edit some pictures for some friends.

xoxo,
Megan, Baby, and Daddy Jones

Fall is here..... hmmm

Well, I guess I will only be able to make monthly updates. I really wish I was better at committing to a blog.

September is here and with that means, cooler weather, allergies, football, crunchy leaves, bonfires, and too many thoughts for my head.

My father and I have this unique commonality: we LOVE FALL but yet it makes up depressed. It's rather hard to explain but it's something that I have had to deal with since Freshmen year in highschool. It's as if the excitement of the summer has officially ended and the droomy year is ahead of us.

Yet, I love being able to walk outside, feel the breezy, and not feel as if I'm going to die from heat. I love going to football games and seeing the crowds cheer on their teams. The time getting to spend with friends and family is another perk of the season.

Lately I've been questioning if my "best years" are behind me. I miss highschool, college..... not being AS responsible as I have to be now.

I feel out of sink with reality, I feel distant from my husband. I feel out of place with friends and awkward around family.

Maybe it's baby hormones. As of last Thursday I was 14 weeks pregnant. I thought we were ready for this; don't get me wrong I can not wait to hold my bundle of joy. I have always wanted kids. I love kids; it is my job after all. I love my nieces and my friends kids.

But with this child change is coming, and a big change. I'm just glad that little baby jones will be here in March when I'm not in my fall funk.

I did have a productive morning so far; cleaned all the dishes, put clothes away, cleaned everything really, had a great lunch (and splurged with coffee... baby liked!). Was able to read and listen to some good tunes.

I'm going to a baby shower here shortly. Then tonight, a lame Saturday night, I will be probably grading some papers and preparing a project for the kiddos. Student teaching has been going really well.

It is SO comforting to know that every time I walk into my classroom that that is where I need to be, this is what I need to be doing. It's good to feel like I belong somewhere. Even if it is a junior high trying to settle and find my management style.

Well, that's enough for my down self.

Fall.... my favorite enemy.